The papers got it wrong. They usually do. This wasn’t a hate crime…at
least not in the traditional sense of the word. I didn’t care that he was a
cross-dresser or that his sexual preference was “anything goes”. Those things
don’t matter to me. What people do in the privacy of their own bedroom is their
business, not mine. No, my motive had nothing to do with his slinky dresses and
wigs; it was all about the person under the mask. Sometimes, no matter how much
makeup a person spackles onto their face, they can’t hide the ugliness inside.
To help you understand why, I guess it
would help for you to understand me. For most of my life I’ve been an outsider.
Growing up, we moved around a lot because of my dad’s work (or lack thereof). Usually, it was the fellow outcasts, oddballs
or geeks that sought me out; after all, there’s safety in numbers. Everyone needs someone to watch their back. Even
though I was small for my age; I could hold my own on the school yard. One
thing was the same no matter where I attended school; bullies always singled
out the new kids. It was almost as if they were staking their claim but I
learned fast. Usually, all it took was landing one good punch- give them a
bloody nose or a busted lip and they’d back off. My grandmother always used to
say, “You catch more flies with honey than vinegar” but, personally, I don’t
think that applies to tormentors. None of the bullies I’d ever met responded to
anything other than brute force. We moved in with Grandma when I was just
starting tenth grade, right after dad died. That’s when I met Cory Randolph.
He lived right next door and neither of us
were what you’d call ladies’ men. Where I was short and scrawny, he was tall
and lanky. Grandma called us “Mutt and
Jeff”; though I never understood what that meant. Cory and his kid sister,
Sherry, were kind to me and we hit it off right away. They let me walk with
them to school and at lunch they introduced me to all their friends. From that
day forward, we were inseparable. I’d never had any siblings so they became my
family, especially when mom met someone new and moved out to live with him. Even
after high school we stuck together. Cory convinced me to take courses with him
at the community college. He finished
quicker than I did, lack of funds prevented me from taking a full course-load
but each semester Cory continued to encourage me.
I was still stocking shelves at the
neighborhood grocery store (flexible hours and health insurance even for
part-time employees) when Cory landed a real, grown-up job. Monday through
Friday, nine to five, paid lunch and breaks, with his own little cubicle; I was
both proud and envious. I couldn’t wait until I graduated too so I could join
Cory in the real world.
With a little extra financial boost from
both my grandmother and Cory, I managed to graduate the same year as Sherry. Cory’s
company was in the midst of a growth spurt and they were looking to fill ten
new positions so he put in a good word for us. Sherry and I both applied and
were accepted. It seemed too good to be true, all three of us working together.
The first few days on the job, Sherry and I
were in training sessions so we only saw Cory at lunch. We were surprised to
learn he sat alone. In a break room full of people, Cory was stuck in the back
corner, all by himself. It was just like being back in high school, no wonder
he wanted us to come work there. I’d only had time to take a few bites of my
sandwich when a raspy, cruelly sarcastic voice carried over the dull hum of multiple
of conversations.
“Well, well, look at this. Cory kiss-ass has recruited
some friends.”
Cory’s face blanched. I
hadn’t seen that expression since we graduated. Furious, I turned around to
confront the jerk but my words froze on my tongue. I don’t know exactly what
I’d been expecting but that wasn’t it. I’m not sure if it
was the riot of carrot-colored curls, the inch-thick layer of makeup, or the
size twelve pumps that threw me off first. Pinned to a snug fifties-style
sweater-set was a name tag reading Darren Mann. Those broad shoulders and
Adam’s apple belonged to a man named Darren but the pouty, red lips and
dramatically long eyelashes lined in smoky charcoal didn’t.
“What are you gawking at, loser?” Darren sneered at me.
I stammered, trying to insist
I wasn’t staring but everyone knew I was. Out of instinct, Sherry looked down
at the floor. She slumped down low in her chair, making herself seem so small
and lost.
“And who is this little wallflower? Could it be? Does
Cory kiss-ass have a girlfriend? Let’s have a look-see.”
The only thing worse than Darren’s
screechy-high falsetto was the eerie sing-song tone he used to taunt us. Meaty
hands lifted Sherry’s chin for a better look as Darren’s talon-like metallic
red nails curled around her face.
“Oh-Em-Gee! This is just tragic. Girl, you need a
complete overhaul. Do you even know what concealer is? And that hair, ugh, and
your nails…if you’d fix yourself up a bit you could find someone better than
him.”
“Leave her alone,” I blurted out. “She’s his sister not
his girlfriend.”
“Honey, I’m guessing in his family that’s the same thing,
am I right?”
Darren looked around the
break room with sheer malice in his eyes. Nervous twitters of laughter broke
out under his harsh glare. I opened my mouth to say something in their defense
but Cory nudged me and shook his head no.
Seeing he wasn’t going to get a response, Darren hurled a few more
insults at us and left.
“Whatever you do, just avoid all contact with Darren. I’ll
explain tonight on the way home.” Cory whispered.
I was so angry I could
barely pay attention to our training seminar. At the end of the day, we all
piled into Cory’s car. Sherry and I were anxious to get an explanation.
“So, what gives?” I demanded.
“Well, I didn’t know it at the time but apparently Darren
and I were up for the same promotion. When I got it instead of him, he threw a
fit. Our company prides itself on celebrating diversity and being a safe,
accepting place to work. People don’t have to hide who they are inside because
all are welcome here.”
“Really?” I scoffed. “What’s safe and welcoming about
being bullied by a two hundred pound gorilla in makeup?”
“Just hang on, I’m getting there. Anyway, when Darren
started carrying on about being discriminated against for his….um, fashion
sense; management got scared. They had just been featured in nationwide
magazines as being one of the best places to work in the country. A scandal
like that would really hurt them. As it turned out, they ended up promoting him
too, just to keep the peace. Our HR
director asked me to make the first step and try patch things up with Darren.”
Cory sighed and shook his head. “It was a complete accident but he made me so
nervous that instead of calling him Ms. Mann I said Miss Mandy. Everyone
started saying he should change his name ‘cause he’s more a Mandy than a Mann
and now he hates me. I’ve apologized a million times but he won’t listen. HR
won’t do anything because he’s still playing the discrimination card so I just
have to suck it up. Eventually, he’ll find someone new to bully and he’ll
forget all about me.”
“You sound like Mom,” groaned Sherry. “She always used to
say that crap when we were in school.”
“She was usually right.”
That night, as I stared up
at the ceiling while trying to fall asleep; I imagined avenging my
friends.
**Be sure to return, Monday, June 2nd for the next installment of Mandy**